and know one can tell that i'm sad
Behind it all, behind all the laughter and the jokes, behind the playful banter, I'm actually sad. But this is something we al have to live with, and all have accept. There will be times in our lives when it gets the better of us, it could be for a day or maybe for years, you don't know.
And I say way-hey-hey, it's just an ordinary day and it's all your state of mind. At the end of the day, you've just got to say... it's all right.
I hate being the person that I am. It's being nearly two years and what i feel still hasn't gone away. It's horrible, I shouldn't be doing what I am, and I shouldn't be feeling what I'm feeling. Why is that I don't want anything else? I had a girlfriend in the palm of my hands, something I've been complaining about getting for sometime, and I turned it down. Why? I don't know, just something that was in me before came back. That if I don't have that first than nothing else really matters. It's just moot.